大家好(:

大家, 今天是华文A 水准考试.
要加多点油哦
别紧张, 要镇定.
好好儿审题哟!

祝愿大家都能考到理的成绩.
大家冲啊 :)

:DDDDDDD

time machine.

i need some time by myself,
without anybody else,
i just need to unwind in my time machine.

far away and i'll be ok.
i just need your presence lord. (:
and it'll never be the same again.

it's gonna be chinese A levels tomorrow.
gonna mug like crazy again.
but this time.
so many passages and chinese words.
it's killing me.

bleah.

praise the lord (:

hi all. everything's finally coming to an end. woohoos.
really wanna thank god for bringing me through exams and difficult times. (:
and yeah.
after OP, everything will end and everyone will be busy again.

so yeah, enjoy guys and see ya soon :D

phone crash.

no more living in self denial.
i'll make the best outta these shit.

(:

oh and my phone just died on me again :(
guess it just didn't much like its master. oh well.
everything's gonna be finalised on thursday.

and it seems like i'll have to spend the holiday studying for the retest.
oh god, keep me away from temptations.
scary it may seem but i'm not the very least disheartened.

drugs.

have been popping pills into my mouth since yesterday. totally horrible.
system gone haywire, aftermath of the pills.

apologies to shepherd. Really sorry, your sheep here super blur :p
shepherding was off cause i went to school late.

pwed and lunch and pwed again.
drats, this vicious cycle.

chinese A level coming up.
all the best (:

god's good all the time

did some skinning since i've decided that my blog needed some making up. results given back and bwah, it's simply atrocious, but it ain't my fault. my mind's not conditioned for exams, freaking serious. really hate doing papers in air conditioned room. well, i can daringly say i flunked all my subjects with great pride(: and huiqi's nice enough to console us all even when she's got tons to do. THANKS ALOT. anyway, through god's grace, i managed to pass econs (:

i'm gonna look on the bright side :) no more worries, nothing. i'll live a happier life like that. i guess? sometimes reality tends to hurt so much that people feel like giving up. but i know that God will always be there for me, preparing my way for me and guiding me. so why fear :) i really wanna be a good testimony and that means i'll have to stop skipping school and do well for my tests and exams. not only that, i'll have to change my attitude towards people around me. no more jealousy, no more anger, no more irrespectfulness.

and i guess SR's gonna have 500 retainees end of this year. too shocking a news, but it's true, substantiated and proven (:
anyway, shepherd's right, everything boils down to foundation.
no point promoting when my foundation's so so weak.
so i'll request for retain :D

anyway, life's been a mundane one.
gonna add some spices to my life after chinese A levels (:
meanwhile, all mug hard yo :D

yay! and i'm meeting up with shepherd for our long lost shepherding sessions :D woohoos. super excited hehe. pw today's gonna be cranky. rahh. loads of work to be done on the wr and op presentation slides.
gonna fast and pray with huiqi today (: hopefully we'll please god with our faith and sincerity.really want everything to change. i'm not very happy with the way things are right now. but i'll try my very best to adapt to it and hopefully, i can make it.

oh, some outdated things.
class dinner at chomp chomp last friday. had quite a good time with my cliques (: though it was suppose to be a class gathering.
calories intake gonna be BOOM :P
i guess i'll need a good workout after this.

So Long.

There is a great deal of depression that has overtook my soul,
It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.
I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,
What is to come, to my dismay.
As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions,
more and more comes,
more and more depression.

I assure myself everything is ok!
But who am I fooling?
Then I burst into a spirit of rage.
I have questions, and there are answers.
But I'm afraid and much too weak,
When I try to explain,
I hear wrong and need to be meek.
But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,
But as I battle with myself,
I always lose the fight

I feel intimidated sometimes by others,
But as I said "This is how I feel"
The pain in me is very real.
I lose control, my thought go wild,
and here I am only a child.
If only you knew what I thought,
If only you knew what I fought.
I need my thoughts held captive.

Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal
and you'll help me think positive.
I'm hurting, I need you!
Please don't give up on me!
One day I will always make you smile!


Love,Your Child

all i am, in your hands.

life's a chore. it always is.
i've always wonder what makes a person perfect.
can't seem to get the answer anyway.
really can't.
i know i've been foolishly stupid. but that's me.
can't change it overnight, can i?

make up physics paper tomorrow.
hopefully, i can make it and promote to jc2 next year.
really want to.
it's no point getting into a college and get kicked out a year after.
really make no sense and it's just a waste of time.


all i can do now,
is to study hard and do my best in everything.
and leave it all to god.


falling on my knees in worship
giving all i am to seek your face
lord all i am is yours

my whole life i place in your hands
god of mercy, humble i bowed down
in your presence, at your throne.

i called,
you answered,
and you came to my rescue.